Gerwin and I have been corresponding all day. He is currently in Dubai so he has actually been staying awake while he should be sleeping! LOL. He has given me much incite to his life and truly to mine. Because he was much older when he was adopted, he harbors feelings that I never had seeing as I was much younger when I was adopted. I feel for him. I hate to see the pain he has experienced throughout the years; however, it's like he said...what he has been thru is what has made him who he is today. That is true in all of us. We are who we are because of our life's experience but to add to that, we are who we are because of how we've handled life's experience. Right?
From: Lauren E Taylor [mailto:audienceof3@aol.com]
Sent: Saturday, April 24, 2010 5:07 PM
To: Legaspi, Gerwin R. HM3 (CVN69)
Subject: Your New Found FB friend
Gerwin,
I find your story quite intriguing. We were both at Bethany at the same time. So, since you were much older till you came to the states, what was Bethany like? What is the Philippines like? I’ve had multiple chances to go back but I feel that I am going back to somewhere that I know nothing of. I feel I will go back when I have more of a purpose. So have you always known about your family or did you have to go searching for the information? Also, I blog a lot about my life. Only certain people have access to the blog so with that said, do you mind if I blog about some of our conversations? This is definitely a part of my life and my connection back to the Philippines.
So what is your life like now? I read that you have 1 more year left…then what? Who adopted you and where do they live? My sister and I were both adopted from the Philippines; however, she came from Manila. So we are not blood related at all. Are you the only adoptee in your family?
Till next time,
Lauren
Lauren, We were in Bethany at the same time? Interesting… lol… that makes you even cooler in my book. For me Bethany was closer to a family than my real family ever was… so in a way Bethany was home. I wish I had a wand to take my memory out and let you see… like in Harry Potter… It’s hard to explain to you since you are not me… everyone experiences things differently… for me the Philippines was a hard and trying life… it sucked… but it made me who I am… I am who I am because I am… nothing more… and nothing less. I am a better person for it I think. As for my family… they are in my memory… I remember them… and I remember losing them. Yes you may blog about our conversation… your are as much a part of my life as I am yours. We are connected by fate… I personally believe that when God created us he gave us two things… Fate and Freewill… Freewill is everything you can control… and Fate is God’s will… everything else that you cannot control. You and I were destined by fate… and now our path has crossed again. I’m glad I found you my sister :-)
My life right now is a difficult one… it’s a path that is not quite clear to me. I am a Navy Corpsman… I enlisted back in 05 right out of high school. I’m committed for six year of my life. It has been an interesting six years or should I say… going to be… lol. I do have one more left after this July. I was in Iraq in 07-08 with my Marines… I came to my present command last year and deployed three days later to the same place we’re at now. This is my third deployment since 07… For a long while I thought I would stay… a lifer… military life is hard… but it became routine… and routine is easy. I can’t do this anymore though… I feel it as I feel the coming of change… the winds of change… I smell it… it’s time to leave. I made this choice a couple of months ago… another reason I joined the Navy was because I didn’t know what to do for College and I didn’t want my adopted parents to be spending another cent on me. They took care of me for a long while… I decided it was my turn to build my life with my own two hands and at the same time give back to this country that I’ve come to love so much. Well I’ve done my time I think… and now it’s time to think about the future and maybe start a family of my own. One thing for sure though… I want to adopt and give another kid the same chance I was given. So for now the putting my life together is my priority… I’m a little behind on the whole college thing… I’ve been a little busy these past few years with deployments. So I’m going to have to bite my lip and get it over with… going to try and become a physical therapist I think and perhaps I’ll think about coming back in to military life but as an officer. At least that is the plan I see for me.
I was adopted by Steve and Malinda Wynn. They have two children… one the oldest… my sister Kelley Irvan from my mom’s first marriage… the other… the youngest. Robert (Rob or Robbie) Wynn their only child together. So I have an older sister and a younger brother. He was two when I came to the family. We first lived in Winston-Salem, NC then we moved to Eagan, MN… and finally moved to Loveland, OH where I joined the Navy. So my heart has no home… which is probably why I feel so alone and on my own. Oh, and yes… I am the only adoptee in the family.
Okay… I told you part of my story… so now it is your turn. Also… you can read my “Notes” in fb… it is sort of like my blog… I started writing it in Yahoo 360… I’m glad it was easily transferred to fb because 360 was taken down. I suggest you read them… you’ll find out a lot about me.
Until next time sis…
~Gerwin~
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