I feel a connection with my new found Bethanian brother. We have only corresponded three times but even with that, I feel his void is the same as mine. It's not on our thoughts every day, it's just tucked away on the back burner. Voids we're not quite sure what to do with or make of it. I have yet to hear his whole story. Hopefully within the next couple days or weeks we can truly get a connection on how we feel and how we are dealing with it. Each to his own.
Finding new friends who experienced the same thing I did/am gives me hope. Makes me realize that my feelings are just me making them up or being ridiculous. They are truly there, I just haven't allowed myself to feel them. At this time in my life I feel a true sense of wanting to know where I came from. Close family members are becoming ill and reality is is that my family is aging and with that comes death. I want to know that there is more family out there for me. Sounds selfish and it is...I just want to know.
Hope to get in touch with Gerwin more often. I feel his stories of growing up can give me incite of what I don't remember. Like I told him, until next time.
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